Finding Freedom Through Gratitude: A Journey of Healing
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Chapter 1: Embracing Choices Through Gratitude
What about your own choices? Recently, I’ve been reminded of the many things I have to be thankful for. Since joining Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) and committing to the program, I’ve discovered the power of choice in my life.
Previously, I felt trapped without options, but the program unveiled a path towards sobriety. Sobriety encompasses much more than merely refraining from alcohol or drugs; it’s about experiencing a life filled with genuine happiness, joy, and freedom. From my first AA meetings, I was captivated by the message of “How it Works,” particularly the second paragraph that boldly states, "If you desire what we have and are prepared to go to any lengths to achieve it, then Come On Down!"
I yearned for the transformation I witnessed in other AA members. My determination to obtain this new life was unwavering. Growing up, I was often forced to pay a price for simply stepping outside my home. The harsh realities of my upbringing shaped my perspective on life.
Section 1.1: The Weight of Fear
Fear was a constant companion in my life. I turned to alcohol as a way to dull my fears, often leading to blackouts. My motivation for drinking wasn’t the taste; it was the escape it provided.
Throughout my youth, I encountered various friends—some like me, and others who were destined for incarceration. After leaving the Army, I began working as a bouncer while taking on additional shifts at a foundry. This is where I met my first wife, and together we navigated a tumultuous relationship marked by our mutual struggles with alcoholism.
Subsection 1.1.1: Community and Compassion
A few months ago, while volunteering at the St. Andrews Soup Kitchen in Flint, I learned about the passing of a regular patron. She wasn’t the typical person one would consider "nice," yet she was someone’s daughter or sister. My connection with the people at the Soup Kitchen is deep; they are my extended family, and I care for them all.
When I hear stories like hers, my immediate thought is, "Thank you, God, for guiding me toward AA. There but for your grace go I!" I’ve been described as intense, and I accept that. However, while I don’t take myself too seriously, I approach my AA program with utmost seriousness.
Section 1.2: A Journey of Healing
A couple of weeks ago, my wife experienced a medical crisis that led us to the hospital. After a week of care, she faced further complications due to congestive heart failure. Thankfully, she is now recovering and will soon begin physical therapy. We are truly blessed.
We often discuss the simplified version of the Third Step: "God, help me," and then allowing Him to work. Incredible things unfold when we do this. My once self-centered nature has transformed into one filled with gratitude.
Glen Campbell - Try A Little Kindness (1987)
This powerful song reminds us of the importance of kindness in our lives and the impact it can have on our healing journey.
Chapter 2: The Transformative Power of Gratitude
As I embraced the concept of expressing gratitude, I began to experience a deeper sense of serenity. By incorporating simple "thank yous" into my daily life, I found that my perspective shifted, and my challenges became easier to navigate.
When my gratitude outnumbered my pleas for help, I felt an incredible sense of liberation. I started actively searching for reasons to be thankful, often smiling and mumbling to myself as I counted my blessings.
Try A Little Kindness - Glen Campbell (1969)
This classic tune echoes the vital message of embracing kindness and gratitude, resonating deeply with our recovery journeys.
I learned that I cannot hold onto love unless I share it with others. Showing appreciation to my Higher Power has filled my life with overwhelming blessings. When I focus on counting my blessings, I find little room for complaints.
Initially, I struggled to identify things I was grateful for, often thinking that my problems were insurmountable. However, through the guidance of others, I learned to appreciate the simple act of being alive. Each time I take a breath, I express my gratitude.
Incorporating gratitude into my life has led to profound changes. Today, I am surrounded by people who not only love me but also genuinely enjoy my company. This shift in perspective has made my life feel incredibly blessed.
If you’re feeling the weight of depression and despair, I encourage you to explore gratitude. You have nothing to lose but your woes. Share this message, and let others know about the power of kindness and gratitude in recovery.