Finding Joy Amidst Estrangement: My Journey in Newcastle
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Chapter 1: A New Chapter Begins
Having spent ten years in Sydney, a city that felt like home, I developed a deep affection for its iconic Sydney Opera House. The stunning architecture harmonizes beautifully with both the city skyline and the vibrant blue of the Pacific Ocean, creating a picturesque view that changes with every angle.
Weekends often found me exploring Chinatown or taking a scenic ferry ride to Manly Beach, not to mention the lively Sydney LGBTQ Mardi Gras that filled the streets with joy. Sydney truly celebrates diversity and culture, making it a unique destination.
However, during the pandemic, I made the difficult decision to move back in with my parents due to their serious health issues. To facilitate this transition, I sold my one-bedroom apartment in western Sydney and relocated to Newcastle, where my parents' home is situated.
With my job on hold, I had ample free time, which I dedicated to reviving a garden that had been left unattended for years. I went on to landscape the entire yard, transforming it from front to back. Given the soaring real estate prices, I opted to construct a small granny flat, often referred to as a tiny house.
My tiny home, named 'Bird Of Paradise,' is adorned with a beautiful line of bird of paradise plants leading to the entrance. Though I had never envisioned living in such a compact space, the 32 sqm design became an appealing and distinctive living choice. Nestled in the backyard, it provides a serene retreat away from nearby residences—a temporary sanctuary of sorts.
As the world began to emerge from lockdown, travel resumed, yet I remained unemployed. To generate some income, I decided to list my space on Airbnb. While it was a tough choice to make so soon after moving in, I ultimately embraced the opportunity.
Now, I am back in the workforce. Initially, I felt exhilarated by the new environment and the chance to meet colleagues. Although the job doesn't match my dream career aspirations, it pays the bills, and I have additional income from hosting on Airbnb. I thought, 'This is my new reality,' and resolved to approach it with an open heart.
With a population of 322,278 (as per the 2016 census), Newcastle is a coastal city in New South Wales, Australia, boasting breathtaking coastlines and a laid-back beach lifestyle. Summer here is warm, complemented by refreshing breezes.
You can enjoy leisurely bike rides, savor a delicious flat white at a local café, bask in the sun, and swim in the tranquil Pacific Ocean. Grabbing fish and chips from a beach kiosk and napping on the sand are simply part of the routine.
As the day winds down, you return home with sandy feet and a salty glow, surrounded by the beauty of this sun-kissed paradise. However, despite its allure, my journey in this city has been fraught with challenges.
A profound sense of loneliness settled over me, akin to a void that threatened to engulf my spirit. I felt isolated, lacking any friends or familiar faces. This sentiment was exacerbated by my visible differences as a gay, brown Asian man, which intensified my feelings of estrangement.
While the beach might be beautiful and the summer sun warm, I found myself adrift in a new environment, tethered only by my father's illness. The locals, known as Novocastrians, are generally laid-back, which I found surprising in the workplace as well. Colleagues would casually discuss personal matters, including intimate details about their lives. While I was not offended, I couldn't help but wonder if I was too old for such conversations.
After experiencing racial abuse on the street, I became increasingly apprehensive about venturing out, except for cycling to work. I withdrew from the world, losing faith in humanity and retreating into silence for several months.
Yet, a single quote from Gandhi reignited my spirit: "You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty." This realization prompted me to reopen my heart to the world.
I have always believed in the inherent goodness of people, and I understand that focusing on the positive rather than the negative is essential. If I dwell solely on the negatives, I risk becoming a reflection of that negativity. This principle applies not just to individuals but also to the places we inhabit. If I choose to see only the faults in Newcastle, I will inevitably feel unwelcome. Instead, I strive to appreciate its positive aspects.
Adjusting to a new city can be daunting, and feelings of loneliness and alienation are common among newcomers. However, by remaining optimistic and determined, I've begun to carve out a sense of belonging. I've cultivated a garden and embarked on a new business venture.
From a hilltop, I gaze down at Newcastle Beach, where summer days are filled with warmth and friendliness. The salty sea breeze offers a refreshing respite. This marks the beginning of a new chapter. My relationship with Newcastle may be rocky, but within the challenges, I find hope.
Even during difficult times, silver linings exist. With perseverance and an open mind, I am learning to discover happiness in unexpected places and, more importantly, to become a better person.
Chapter 3: Embracing Community
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